I’ve finally done it! I’ve created a blog, and here I am (admittedly a few days later) making my first post. This is a very.big.deal. This blog has been in my head for about a year now, simmering away, bursting to be free, but being held back by my protective, over-reactive perfectionist brain. There’s a lot of other ideas and projects still stuck in there, straining against the deadlocked door, but somehow Raw Once More slipped through the keyhole and made it onto the page.
And here it is. But what is it? That’s a long way from being clear, and of course that’s one of the reasons why my perfectionist brain didn’t want to release it – it wasn’t fully formed. As in it wasn’t finished. That’s kind of the only way to know exactly what something like this IS – to see it when it’s finished. Logically I know this, but that doesn’t stop Little Miss Perfectionist having her way. So no, I don’t know what it IS, but finally, after all this time, I’m doing it anyway!
What I DO know about this blog is that it is a place to record my journey. That sounds more than a little bit cliché I know, but yep, I’m on a journey. In some ways it’s the journey of a lifetime. You see, I’m not well. And I’m not the happiest I could be either. And I’ve kind of got no idea who I am. Sounding all first world angsty and wanky yet? But that’s where I’m at. I’ve led a fairly non-conventional life working in very non-conventional areas, and I’ve had some crazy adventures. I’ve also had a lot of shit challenges to face. I’ll write more about these later. And now I find myself stuck at home, broke and very ill with chronic illness, which has finally made me realize I need to change my lifestyle: my diet, home, habits, career, hobbies, thinking, and the way I treat myself. Of course I’ve found myself in this situation before, and had these realisations before, but this time I’m determined to change (I have to).
So yes, this blog will record my journey to wellness and wholeness. It will also be a space to reflect on the past, all the good and bad times, mischief and mayhem that have led me to this point. It is also a space where I can explore the passions of my new life: frugality, simplicity, sustainability, eco-friendliness, DIY, art, nutrition, health, happiness, positivity, balance, and leading a ‘whole’ life. These have always been passions, but I’m finally allowing myself to acknowledge them and indulge in them, well more than I have in the past anyway.
So if you’re into that kind of stuff too, and don’t mind a bit of crazy, then welcome! Make yourself comfy: my home is your home 
